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“A fascinating, genuine account of the ups and downs of life as a single mum hitting fifty”
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A Diary From the Frontline of Ordinary Life

On my fiftieth birthday in July 2019 I began a diary to explore what it was like to be a middle-aged menopausal woman in today’s modern society. The waning of my youth and the obvious acceleration of ageing had brought about a mini metaphysical crisis that I was struggling to navigate and accept. But I wasn’t ageing alone, my parents were too, which was changing our relationship in a way that was challenging and heart breaking but that I equally needed to come to terms with.

I was also attempting to meet people and find a boyfriend. As a single mother to ten-year-old neurodiverse twins trying to find a long term partner is challenging. Online dating is a psychological minefield at the best of times but unless I donned the PPE and chanced my luck among the unexploded weapons I had no way of meeting anyone. Then in the new year of 2020 the coronavirus pandemic arrived in the world and everything changed.

50 is an accidental work of witness to the start of the coronavirus pandemic and a vivid chronicle of an English woman’s middle-age

“Funny, poignant, engrossing”